| Scooby Doo 2 |
[Jun. 30th, 2004|11:51 pm] |
Good movie.. you will like it if you liked the first (which I own hehe).
Just thought I'd let ya'll know :P Because my family and I just saw it at the $1 theater tonight.. good good movie hehe. |
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[Jun. 30th, 2004|11:44 pm] |
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Its been a while.. I've been busy. Work has been pretty hectic, but some funny stuff has happened.
I'll try and update sometime soon, but I'll give some key things that has just recently happened.
1. I got a cell :P Finally haha
2. A customer asked me if I had a boyfriend and asked for my number (I said no, if you were wondering)
3. I had a breakdown the other night. I just broke down
4. I gots me some friends haha I think one of them likes me because he asked me to the movies (Chris) but Cyrus is acting pretty weird lol. Richard is acting weird too. They are all three coworkers.. but Cyrus and I are friends. More so than the others. I talked to him more, and Chris more than Richard even though I see Richard more. I dont know, I'm just not ready for a relationship I guess.. maybe later.
5. Went to Cyrus' house today after work.. well actually after work we walked back to my house sat outside and talked some then went to his.. just the outside though, but its so nice. His step father is korean/japanese.. so they have bonsai and other japanese plants.. reminds me of Oki.. I really miss that place. :(
Pretty much the highlights.. I'll give detail later when I get the chance, hopefully.
Gotta jet to bed.. its late and I worked morning shift this morning and I'm DOG TIRED lol. |
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| net problem |
[Jun. 24th, 2004|10:21 pm] |
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The internet has been giving me problems today. Sorry I haven't posted lately. I've been working long hours and also nights.. so I'm dog tired when I get home and before going to work I'm trying to wake up or stay awake lol. I haven't been getting much sleep lately and I'm sick. I just got a cold yesterday so I hope it'll go away soon.
I'll tell about my past few days in the next post. I should be in bed since I have to work tomorrow and hopefully sleep will help me "heal" more. |
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[Jun. 19th, 2004|01:24 pm] |
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Yesterday.. hmm.. it was my day off, but yet I didnt do what I wanted to. lol. But I did enjoy it, most of it. I watched a movie with my father, "Ghost Ship", my first time seeing it. Not bad. Then I watched "Showtime", I own it so it was maybe my 3rd or 4th time seeing it. Then Tab and I were supposed to go to the movies, but that didnt work out. Tab and I were originally supposed to go on Thursday, but I had to do my accounting final, so we didnt make it. So we changed it to Friday. We got ready and went down there but the movie wasnt on that she wanted me to see "Ella Enchanted" or something like that. Anyhow, so we were gonna go see "Lady Killers" instead but that started at 7:45pm. We went home (its around 5:10 now) and we made some brei (sp) and apples. Brei is a type of cheese.
My mom got home from work and we ate something for dinner. I asked if she wanted to go to the movies and she said no. By the time the movie was gonna start, Tab and I didnt go. We were watching tv shows instead, "Sex and the City". First time for Tab so she wanted to watch it. I saw an episode a while ago, so I wasnt all that "thrilled" to watch it like she was. Tab was kinda upset since we didnt go to the movies, but we will another time.
I have to work today. Supposed to be 2-10pm, but the called and asked if I could close. So I'm working 2-12 (or midnight lol). I should be getting over $400 this pay check :P I'm happy about that. Well, I better go get ready for work. I have to be leaving shortly. I'm gonna be so tired when I get home lol. Oh well. |
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| i stepped on something the other night... |
[Jun. 16th, 2004|01:46 pm] |
My mom likes to joke on me know. A few nights ago.. maybe three or so.. I got home from work and my mom was outside doing wash. She was being sweet and washing my work shirts so I had a clean one for the next day. Well, I went to the back door (washer/dryer outside).. and I stepped on something. I looked down and saw a brown thing. First, I was on a mat.. a black mat. It also was dark.. so I turn on the light and see its a 3-4 inch centiped. I stepped on a freakin centiped. I was lucky it didnt sting me too. Omg. Well, now she keeps asking me.. so have you stepped on any centipeds lately? I do a sarcastic laugh.. then laugh a little.
Well I gotta jet.. need to get dressed for work and I only have 15 minutes lol to get dressed for work and get there that is. Just thought you may like to hear about my centiped story lol. |
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| talk with a postal man |
[Jun. 15th, 2004|11:12 pm] |
Today was like any other day.. long, tired, sad.. but when I was on my lunch a postal man walked by. (I actually didnt work the night shift.. i worked lunch/dinner from 10:30-6, very weird and interesting lol) I also worked a little on drive thru as the cashier and giver of food lol. Back to the postal guy lol. He had his food (to go) but he sat down a couple tables over. It was kinda funny. We talked my whole lunch lol. We spoke of different things. One thing was relationships. I told him briefly about Jovanny and I... how we were dating but through phone and online mostly.. except when he came over here for that wonderful week and then our relationship went downhill afterwards. Well, he told me about him. He is going in a week to see this woman he has been talking to online. I told him to be careful. I also told him to enjoy himself, but just watch out after the visit. (Jovanny and me thing).
Well.. thats pretty much it.. not actually, but I'm kinda lazy right now and extremely tired lol. I went to bed late last night and woke up early this morning.. plus, I havent been getting sleep and I'm kinda depressed right now. I have to do my accounting final, then I'm done with that class. I'm done with business, but I dont know if the teacher got my term paper. I'm gonna have to give her a call sometime soon. My dad is gonna take me out on thursday, Tab too. I need to get another pair of pants for work, and I need to still deposit my first check (not much, remember? lol). I bought Tab a Rootbeer float today from work.. before I walked home. Yes people.. I bought her a float from McDonalds, then I walked home with it.. lol. Naw, I thought I would get her one today since I got off early. I figured I would be nice and buy one for her.. I thought of it this morning actually, thats why I had the $5 on me at work lol I usually dont bring money.
I really should go now.. I'm talking to Jay right now.. and I'm serious Jay, you're looking good.. lol. I bet you got a long line out your door of them trying to get with you :P |
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[Jun. 14th, 2004|11:52 pm] |
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AAHHHH haha I worked drive thru today. Well, just a little bit. We are getting new registers tomorrow.. they are installing them tonight. I'm kinda nervous, I just got this one and now they are changing it on me haha. But anyhow, I worked drive thru for a little bit (night time.. so not many people :P). I was so scared haha.
I have my final for accounting to do.. but other than that, I'm done with school. Yippie.. well til July that is. I'm off on thursday and friday. I may go see "lady killers" in the $1 theater with tabby on thursday, but I'm still not certain.
Gonna go to bed now, I have to be in work at 10:30am, and its going on midnight.. so nighty night. |
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[Jun. 12th, 2004|11:54 pm] |
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Well, I got about 5-6 hours sleep this morning lol. I went to bed around 5ish and woke up around 11ish. My mom let me sleep in.. it was weird waking up so late haha. I'm tired as anything right now.. I just got off work. I worked almost a half hour longer because I was helping them by sweeping (helping the closers). I'm supposed to work until 11.. but that is when the store itself closes. But today I worked til almost 11:30 because I was sweeping the food area (where the customers eat).
I'm really tired.. so I'm gonna be going to bed. I'm not getting many hours this week.. but Lucianna (one of the managers) is gonna put me for another day. I am scheduled to work sun, mon, tue, sat.. but she's gonna add another day to make it five days. I talked with Lauren (a girl that I work with). Talked with her about me and Jovanny and she told me about her and I told her about me (well not much, but some). She's 17 but looks older, I'm almost 21 and looks younger. She didnt believe I was.. just because I'm "small". haha. Its fine though, I dont care.. whatever people think is what they think.. I know how I feel and I wont lie to myself about anything. Even if that feeling is something I shouldnt be feeling anymore (a lot of people telling me not to).. yes, I'm talking about loving Jovanny.
I'll write more later. I'm kinda in a depressed state right now. I dont understand it. I just really need to hear from Jovanny (I know, out of the blue and where did this come from) but its true.. I miss him so much. Its been around two weeks since I last spoke with him and since I got those messages. Tomorrow (13th) would have made our 8 month anniversary.
Okay, I'm gonna go now.. probably cry myself to sleep. Guys, I need help. I'm really missing him. I know I shouldnt, but I do.. and I cant help but to miss him. I'm busy with work, but once I'm not busy.. like on my break today, Jovanny just pops in my mind. I feel like I need to drop everything and go see him, but I know I would get shot down if I did. Well, I probably would get shot down by him.
I dunno.. well, this depressed person is gonna go now.
Laterz........ |
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| look at the time lmfao |
[Jun. 12th, 2004|04:46 am] |
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Lets see.. its 4:45 in the AM here. I should be in bed, but I just finished up my term paper for business. That class is done, now just need to worry about accounting.
I'm wired right now.. kinda missed the tired stage. I worked from 2-11 today.. so I got home late too. Today at work was awesome. lol. Yesterday there was this guy that worked grill and he reminded me of Jay, friend of mine.. hi jay :P. Well, today I talked to him.. he just started, actually today was his third day for training.. or was it second. Anyhow, I talked with him and had half my lunch break with him. He's 16 and smokes, can you believe that.. well I told him, are you serious, you smoke.. your just 16, you cant smoke yet.. he just laughed.. with me people, not at me.. i was laughin too. My sandwich took forever to cook too. Rodney just didnt wanna make my double cheeseburger without onion lol. Thats all i wanted for lunch but noo he couldnt make it. lol. Naw, I waited and it was fine.. it was tasty mmm mmm good.
I made some desserts today.. vanilla cone, hot fudge sunday, oreo mcflurry, ooooh and a float. THEY HAVE FLOATS lol. I didnt know that.. but yeah, they do. I even got one too :P Regina, manager tonight, let me have one when I got off (we were closing, but I didnt close.. I just got off at the closing time). I also brought home some fries and pies... hehe that rhymes. Instead of trashing them, Regina let me take them home.
Gosh.. I cant write everything. I'm starting to get tired. Guess the soda is wearing off. I get hyper as fudge when I'm lacking sleep and full of caffeine (sp). hehe. I used to be that I could drink a 6 pack and have the same effect as probably liquor. I was out of it.. but now I'm gettin better :P I can hold my soda lmfao instead of liquor.. I can hold my soda. Okay, maybe its just funny cuz I'm out of it.
I should be off.. its goin on 5am.. lol. Maybe I'll get a few hours of sleep.. I work 3-11 so I better get some sleep lol. Now that I'm getting sleepy, I better go to bed. Joe was nice enough to keep me company thus far, but now that I'm sleepy.. I better say bye to him (we're chattin msn). Night ya'll! |
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| gotta go.. but here's an update |
[Jun. 10th, 2004|11:56 pm] |
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Today was pretty weird. First off.. no I didnt do my essay haha. Its due tomorrow (friday june 11) so I gotta do it before I start work at 2. That means I have to have it done by 1:30ish.
At work.. a lot happened. It was my first full day of work, not just 5 hours but a full 8. I had this one guy order a sandwich and I thought he was getting helped by someone (someone was getting his order for me) and Nelson, store manager, told me to go on break.. so I did. Well, I was working on my paper (just looking at the information and figuring what I wanna write about) and he asked if I was the one that took his order. I said I believe so, and he said he never got it. I asked what he ordered and got up and went to the front counter. I asked if they could help him and they ordered him another sandwich (I'm guessing that drive-thru took the sandwich or something). Anyhow, the guy went to his table and waited. Nelson brought the guy his sandwich and gave him a refund I think.. and also a small cup for soda. The guy ate his sandwich and as he was leaving he thanked me again for helping him. I apologized again for him not getting his sandwich. He told me that he was on his way to the dentist so he never ordered a soda but asked if I wanted his cup. I said no thanks.
Another thing was this one lady that saw me at my interview. The interview was held in the food area where the customers eat. Well I guess she saw me. She told me today that she was happy I got the job because when she saw me at my interview she thought that I would be great for the job. lol. I said thank you and probably blushed a little.
I spoke to more people at my work. But one really sticks out. lol. Richard. Well, lets see here.. I was on my break and he came up to me at the end of it. He was just standing there so I offered him to join me at the table, and I even said that I dont bite lmfao. He said no and I asked if he liked standing he said yeah, but a min later he sat down at the table next to mine. We talked a little. I think his main reason was to tell me that Cyrus was going out with Eden.. Cyrus if thats his name lol.. helped me earlier in my shift and I think Eden got jealous, so she or he probably sent Richard. Well I kinda just shrugged it off cuz I DIDNT CARE haha. I mean, he's a nice guy but not for me. Anyhow.. so Richard and I talked for a little more. Then I went back on my shift. About an hour til the end of my shift, Richard came over to the front counter (he works grill usually) and he helped me as my runner (the person that gets the food for the customer after I take the order). When we cant afford the help, the cashier usually has to do his/her own run. Anyways. He helped me and we talked and goofed off a little. He got off work so he left. He supposidly had a bus to catch, but he the last time I saw him he was talking to some people. Well, I got off work and GOT MY FIRST PAYCHECK from McDonalds :P It is only $34.39 but thats because it covers just my first day (sat- 4 hours) and my orientation (wed- 2 hours) worth.. my next one will be bigger haha. Anyhow, I was filling up a small coke for me to drink on my walk home and I heard someone say "oh so your off". It was Richard. No people, I'm not gonna go out with him so dont even think it.
He missed his bus. Uh huh. lol. Well, he left the same time as me. Hmm, how convenient. lol. Well, we talked a little as we walked outside and we stood at the corner talking a little more. Then I had to go home because my class (last chat for accounting). I walked to the corner of the street to cross to go home, and he walked to the bus station.
Here's a little scoop that you may wanna know lol. I didnt want to work there because of him haha. When we first moved here, we (Sam, Tab, my mom, Anna, and I) went to McDonalds a few times (sometimes all or sometimes some of us). He was there and freaked me out. He kept staring and just creeped me out. He's a nice guy, dont get me wrong, but I just wont go out with him. He seems more like a friend than boyfriend for me. He's 23 by the way. Vicki, someone else that works there that turned 20 this year, told me that he was 23.
Anyhow.. a funny funny story from work now. I am still fairly new to the register and freak out every now and then. Well, this family comes in with a freakin long butt order. Usually they are fine with long orders, but they had special stuff like no pickles no onions.. that sorta stuff. Well, the father was impressed with my memory because I was trying to say the order back to them to make sure it was correct and I was putting them with the people that ordered them. Like when I mentioned the 6 piece chicken nuggets was ordered from one of his sons with also a large drink, he was impressed a lot haha. So much that at the end, Richard made a mistake as he was my runner at this time.. he saw "tasty" and thought turkey flat break (on the tasty menu) but in fact it was a Double Mac he ordered (on the tasty menu). The father said that he believes that was it and asked if I thought so. lol Pretty neat and scary that he thought so highly of me, well my memory at least haha.
Now off work. I have these days that I feel fine without him (you know who I'm talking about). But then there are these times that I miss him so freakin much. I usually can do things that I set my mind to, but I'm afraid that if I set my mind saying that I shouldnt care for him and love him as much, that I will realize that he was the one that got away. But then again, I'm hurting myself when feeling this way for him. Like right now, barely anything could make me as happy as I could be if he was to call me. He wasnt just my ex boyfriend, but my best friend too. Its so hard to lose a friend, and a boyfriend, but to lose both (in the same person) is extremely hard to come to realize. Especially when that was the one person that understood you best and practically the only person that did understand you.
I gotta go to bed.. I need to wake up and work on my term paper that is due. Its almost 20 past midnight.. so I better better better head to bed lol. I really hope I do good on this paper too. Its 200 points. (my final was 50, and my teacher emailed me saying something like "another 'A' for an 'A' student". I was really happy to see that). Hopefully I do good on this paper. Gotta jet. |
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[Jun. 9th, 2004|10:09 pm] |
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I was off again today. I'm glad too. I really dont want to go to work tomorrow though. I haven't been feeling very good today. I was supposed to work on my term paper, but I did look up information. lol. But that is as far as I got. My father came home from work early and I went with him to the other side. He bought a computer late last year (Novemberish) and it was acting up, so we took it to the Sony place over here to see if they can figure out the problem. We may move my computer to the mirrored room so that my family can use the computer to check their email and stuff while theirs is in the shop.
Anyhow.. so my father and I went to the other side of the island. After dropping off the computer, we went to pick up my mom's ring. My mom wanted and went with my father to order a ring.. for her late silver anniversary gift (since my father and mother weren't able to really celebrate last year because my grandfather's passing). Its a really nice ring. My mom knows we got it, but we are trying to act like we have no clue what she's talking about. It's a gold ring with a nice design on it.. it also has my mom and dad's names in hawaiian on the outside and has their wedding day engraved on the inside (july 29, 1978). They were supposed to get their wedding day engraved in their wedding bands, but it never happened, so my mom wanted to make sure her anniversary ring had it. It is really really nice. She's gonna love it. You know, my father may seem a little strict and hard headed, but he's really sweet and romantic.
My dad was kinda dehydrated in the car going over there, so after getting the ring I asked if he wanted to go get something to drink before we left. We ended up going to McDonalds (no, not the one I work at lol). The cashier had colored contacts and looked so much like my bunghole ex Jovanny. lol. Brought back some memories. The guy probably was wondering why I kept looking then not looking at him. lmfao. My father mentioned something when we were leaving and heading to the car.. he said something regarding me feeling better since I'm not with Jovanny anymore. I told him the truth, I told him that I dont really say much anymore about how I feel because no one wants to hear about it. We talked more and pretty much my dad said that he wasnt saying Jovanny was a bad guy, because he is a good guy.. its just that he didnt treat me right and he just wasnt ready. I joked and said "yeah, he wasn't ready for me" lol. But its true. He wasnt. I dont think he really is ready for anything right now, but himself. Guess he's going back to the childhood stage when children say "thats mine" lol. Okay, I'm being a little mean by that.. but thats how he is right now. Very selfish and self-oriented. He used to care about my feelings and how I was (mentally and physically) but a few months ago.. when people started talking to him saying how I had him in check and stuff.. well he kinda flipped and began to be more selfish and not caring I guess you could say.
I wont lie. I miss him a lot, but I cant stop my life for someone that wouldnt stop his for me. I would have died for that guy, if I had to or if it was to save him. But maybe thats the fool I am.
I got work tomorrow.. 11-7. I am not feeling good... if your a guy, cover your eyes lol.. I'm cramping and it'll be my second day.. okay guys, you can uncover your eyes lol... and I still have to write that term paper. Its due on friday, no later than. Well, its almost 10:30pm and I should get to sleep so I can get rest hopefully and wake up in time to work a little on my paper then go to work for a long butt time to come home to write more on my paper haha. Man tomorrow is gonna suck for me. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2004|10:24 pm] |
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you know.. i didnt mention this in the last one. oh and by the way, i dont feel like using any special keys right now if you cant tell already haha. well back to the not mentioning thing. yesterday at work.. i had different customers tell me to keep the change. i was like, umm sorry but i cant do that. lol what, am i waitress or something haha.. they cant give me tips lmfao. it was funny. okay now on to today.
i'm so messed up right now. i am a person that never really wanted to drink, yet right this moment i feel as if i wanna just get smashed. i have a lot of things going on for me and none seem to be really anything positive. lets see here...
first, family. i'm getting really ticked because no one seems to understand me or anything i'm going through. i'm not gonna say much on this about my family though.. lets just leave it at, i'm really edgy because of them and other stuff.
second, love life. i kinda was thinking today (very very bad thing for me to do lol at least right now). i kinda figured why i did the things i did when i was with jovanny. now its too late, but what can i say.. thats just my luck. i'm not gonna say more because you all probably dont wanna read it.. if anyone is reading this anyways lol.
third, school. HEADACHE.. omg. i'm stressing and i have a headache.. i finally did my final for business because my professor was nice enough to email it to me because she's really nice and understands my situation with the computer and website (and yes, my computer is still giving me problems). i also have a term paper due soon for business, and i only have tomorrow free to do it. which leads me to my next thing..
fourth, work. AAAHHHHH. okay, yes i have some highs.. but i'm so stressed out because of it. i mean, they expect way too much from me.. i just started, give me a break. geezem.
fifth, me. i'm so f*ckin mad at myself (parden my language). i really just dont like myself much. it doesnt even seem like anyone likes me anymore.. who have i become?? i mean, i'm this depressed person no one knows is in this state because i seem to be able to hide my feelings well.. i put on a fake smile and act all cheery, like i used to be.. but when i'm alone, the real me comes out... depressed, lonely, heartbroken (two times within a year.. grandfather and now jovanny), unhappy, scared, ill-wished, unlucky, cursed, and well.. everything that i used to not be (except some but i wasnt as much as i am now in those things).
okay off that subject, i'm about to cry so i should stop. i finally saw the sequal to one of the best movies (well in my mind).. "The Whole Ten Yards".. hehe. its good. i loved it. i was laughing so much. it was only 50 cents for the movie hehe and my parents paid, how funny is that. yes people, i'm that broke lmfao. naw, since i have a job.. i'll get some money, but of course it will go for school books, new pants for work, hopefully some more shirts (i really need new/more shirts), and maybe a plane ticket to florida come sept. i have so many questions and for some reason, i feel that florida holds the answers. i dont think i'll be able to do anything until i find out these answers. no people, i'm not going for jovanny.. there are other people i wanna see.
i'm tired.. and cranky.. and in an overall bad mood.. so i better get off before i say something else i regret. something like, i wish that jovanny and i never spoke on the phone to begin with.. we should have just stayed online friends. talking on the phone cursed me. i really should have fought harder to keep him out of my heart, but he got in there.. how i dont know, but he got in there and sometimes i wish i could just remove him because it hurts so much to love him. and the bad part is that i feel that i will love him until i die.
if i ever do get married, i dont think i will ever love my husband as much and as deep as i love jovanny.. maybe i wont truly love him (true and real love.. maybe i will love him, just not true love) because i believe there is only one person for everyone. yes, i know about the being a widow/widower and finding someone else.. my grandmother did. but the thing is, she never loved her second husband (my aunt's (father side) father) as much as she loved my grandfather. she will still tell you today that she will never love another man as much as she loved my grandpa.
okay.. tears are falling.. i better get off. bye :( |
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[Jun. 8th, 2004|12:15 am] |
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HOLY COW.. I turned to my right to get my water because I was thirsty and there was a gecko on my wall. Freakin thing scared the poo out of me lol. It looks like it has just one eye.. poor thing. :( Gecko's are so cute.
Okay.. I'm going to bed now.. just gotta calm down first haha. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2004|12:04 am] |
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I'm pissed.. I just wrote an update and my computer screwed me over. Darn thing.
I'll just try and sum it up...
Work was eventful. I worked register again.. 5 hours today. I'm sore because I pretty much worked 5 hours straight.. my break was supposed to be a half hour but I only got 10 min since they relieved me around 7:25pm and I got off at 8, so I only took a 10 min break. I also worked til 8:10 because I wasnt gonna just stop taking orders.. I waited til the last customer.
Talking about customers.. I had some pretty interesting ones today. lol. Two for instance were these surfers. I only knew this because they said it. But one had just shorts and a towel (towel covering shorts).. dont forget people.. I live in Hawaii.. they are lax here. His buddy had the same thing on but also a shirt. The shirtless one did most of the talking. When I was taking their order, they were talking amongst (sp) themselves but loud enough for me to hear lol. It was so funny.. they were trying to impress me. I was dying inside with laughter.. anyhow.. They got their food and went to eat it. The shirtless one came back later and ordered more.. he also said he didnt know how hungry he was til he came inside. I told him that they should have brought food to the beach with them (they said how they went to the beach and surfed.. the over hearing thing I mentioned before lol).. well shirtless (horrible I'm calling him that lol) said that they did bring food but ate it. I laughed, as did he. It was funny people.. anyhow.. I gave him his order and I dont remember if it was the first time they ordered or this second time, but he called my name and asked for ketchup.. he was the second customer, actually maybe third, to call me by my name and it still freaked me out lol. I keep forgetting I have a name tag right there haha.
Anyways, there's more to say because I did have a lot of crazy and funny and fun customers, but this wacked out lady here needs to get some sleep.. I'm really out of it right now. I'm just glad I am off tomorrow and Wednesday.. I need the break and sleep :P lol. Til next time.... |
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[Jun. 6th, 2004|10:31 pm] |
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I gotta do my accounting quiz and submit my homework here shortly. Its around 10:30 and I need to go to bed so I can wake up and take my business final. I called my teacher today and she told me she will send it via email in the morning (after I call her). I'm not worried about it, about not doing it, but since she is offering this, I wont be rude and do it since she is willing to put the time to sending it to me.
Since I'm off on Tuesday and Wednesday and that my Term paper is due before Friday.. I'm gonna be working on my term paper on those days. But I can always use the break.. hint hint. You may see me online.. but I dunno if I will be on for a long time though unless I'm talking with someone.
Now to today.. other than school lol. Work.. hmm. well well. They stuck me at cash register.. I had Regina (one of the managers) be with me for an hour, but then she got off work. I was alone but not alone. I had the others to help me if I had questions, which I of course did lol. I was flipping out.. even when I got "the hand of it".. I still was flipping out because I dont know where all the keys are. I'm scared about tomorrow since its the first time it will be during the week, it may be more busy, but I'm not sure.
I flipped out two coworkers too hahaha. I have a friend who's name is Vicki Martin, and I put her as a reference.. well when I was interviewed, Lucianna (one of the managers) asked if it was a worker there. I laughed and said no of course. Well, Lucianna was working today (she's the one that put me by myself at the register) and she was talking to someone and called her Vicki, so I thought.. hmm, okay maybe thats Vicki. So she was in the cooking area and I needed help.. I said something like "Do you know how to make a chocolate shake Vicki?" and she came around to help me.. well she then asked me how I knew her name. I told her about hearing Lucianna talk to her and call her that. I then asked her if her last name was Martin or Martins.. she really freaked out. She asked me how I knew that and I explained that I had a friend who is Vicki Martin and some other things.. she said oh and said her's was with a "s" at the end. After that we talked a little while working of course and she helped me more during my shift also. I also freaked out Lauren because I remembered her name. She was working yesterday (my first day) and I was introduced to her, plus I had looked at her nametag a few times that day in hopes of remembering her name. Well, I did remember and I asked for her help at one point and she asked me how I remembered her name. I told her that I have pretty good memory and she was kinda weirded out too. She also helped me during my shift. I needed help all the time, and actually had to ask the customer to hold on for a minute while I asked for help because I was new. The customers, well most of them, were pretty nice and kinda laughed a little when they figured or heard I was new. They were the regulars to the store.
Well, I should be getting to my accounting now so I can go to bed right after. But one more thing.. I'm afraid I'm gonna start smoking haha. It seems like everyone that works at the mc donalds smokes. I doubt I'll start, but if I do hang out with them, I may start :S
Bye for now.. lets hope work and school goes good tomorrow eh? |
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[Jun. 6th, 2004|09:34 am] |
I have no clue how to upload a picture on this. I have to do all these different steps, but I dont have the time to figure it out right now. Sorry.
If you are interested in a picture... just email and ask.. I'll send you one :)
I was going to upload a picture of me in my McDonald's Uniform. |
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| first day |
[Jun. 5th, 2004|10:44 pm] |
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Tired tired tired lol. Well, today was interesting.. now wasnt it haha. I had training today for work.. well it was my first day of work, so I was getting trained, a given lol. Anyhow.. I watched some really old tapes for McDonald's training (I am talking 1990ish lol). I also did a slideshow type of training on the computer. Other than those, I was upstairs most the time doing french fries and learning the keys for the register. Yes people.. I'm brand new and they are putting me on register haha. One of my managers, Lucianna, tried to get me to help a customer without her being there but I flipped. I said that I wasnt ready at all. lol. I would stand by her side and watch her while she helped the customers... that was how I was learning what to push and everything.
I'm getting pretty good at french fries.. not putting them in the containers, but the cooking part. I was doing three batches at one time.. at one time of my shift. It was neat. There is this guy that works there, have no clue about him not even his name, but Lucianna mentioned it was my first day (after he made a comment on something) and he was like, oh really I thought she has been working for a while.. lol it was funny. Tab and my family (when I got home... walking home.. at 8pm which is dark here haha) said I looked cute in my uniform. Tab took some pics, so I will see about posting one up here.
I gotta get to bed though. I'm tired. I missed my final last night, as I may have mentioned, but I emailed my teacher. She emailed me back and it looks like I'll be able to take it still. She is willing to email it to me, or fax, but I have to give her a call. I'll have to do that in the morning, as well as my accounting homework and quiz.. because I have to work again. Lets see if I remember my schedule..
Sunday 3-8, Monday 3-8, Tuesday and Wednesday off, Thursday 11-7, Friday 2-11 (closing), Saturday 3-11 (closing). Pretty odd schedule and hectic too lol. I just hope I'm ready for those long shifts (training).. but I'm game. lol. |
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[Jun. 5th, 2004|12:47 pm] |
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Mc Donalds just called me. lol. Nelson, the store manager, called me and asked if I could start today at 4. I'll be working til around 8. I'm so nervous but excited. lol.
All I can think about is wanting to call Jovanny and tell him. It was always great telling him these types of things when we were together. I dunno.. I still really feel and care for him, but I know I have to try and get over him. There isnt anything there anymore, on his side, so I have to get over him I guess. Its just so hard.. I really wish I could call him and tell him but since we arent talking.. its not possible.
Well, I better take a shower now.. and get ready for.. *gulp* work lol j/k. haha. But I do have to take a shower..
laterz. |
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| a lot of different things |
[Jun. 5th, 2004|12:28 pm] |
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My internet has been doing some stupid things lately.. yesterday I was barely able to load anything at all. I was able to get some offline messages from Evan though. That was pretty nice. I wrote him earlier in the day, but he wasn't on.. when I checked it a few hours later.. he wrote me some messages. He's pretty busy since he's gonna be moving to Florida. I really hope he gets some down time to relax a little... at least a little time.
You remember that final I was telling you about.. well I didnt do it. Yup, you heard right. Stupid internet.. well actually it was the school pipeline wouldnt work last night. I finished up the study guide, then went to take the test to get it out of the way. Well, I saw that it was actually due by midnight that night so I flipped. It was 11pm already, so I only had an hour (thankfully thats the amount of time we had to take it within). I go to open the quiz and it didnt work. I kept trying for about an hour and 10 minutes.. finally it was 10 after midnight (already too late to take it) and it still wasnt working. I was really really ticked.
Its worth 50 points.. which is a lot, but not that much. I do have a term paper due next week that is worth 200 points though.. worth a lot more than the final.. but this means I have to make sure to do exceptionally good on it now. I emailed my professor, and hopefully she emails me back. But I'm not stressing over it. I have too much other stuff to stress about. My head hurts as it is.
Last night we had Tomoko (sp) and her children over. Dean (my father's gunny.. also friend) and my father went to this guy's going away party at a "lounge".. aka a bar lol.. so Tomoko (Dean's wife) and her children came over to our house while they were at the party. Of course, I got stuck babysitting. I love children, dont get me wrong, but when an adult comes over I would really like to talk with them.. especially when I'm dead tired and drained. I didnt have the energy for the children lol. But I put in "Little Mermaid" and sat down and watched it with them.. while playing with them too. You know little kids, they dont tend to sit and watch the movie for the whole movie.. especially when they have seen the movie before. I was like a big pillow for one of the two girls.. she used me as a regular pillow then as a body pillow at one time lol. I was like "ooooookay" lol. Just in my head of course. I didnt eat much that day either, too busy too.. so when she was laying on me at one point, my stomach growled haha. it was funny. I believe their ages are: Sakura around 5, Kana around 2. Something like that.
Oh, I have a tree outside my bedroom window that we have been trying to figure out what it is.. at first we though maybe guava, then papaya, then no clue, but we found out its FIG. yup.. fig.. and boy do the birds looooove it lol. We cant find one ripe one because they get to them. We also have a tangerine (supposidly.. I still think lime) tree, and urmm another one I dont remember what it is. Its really nice.. we have flowers blooming and everything. I'll have to take pics if I can.
My father, mother, and I went to the mall after dropping Tab off at school.. I found another pair of shoes for work, better than the other ones.. more expensive though but more ME. I looked for another pair of black pants, but the only ones we found were too baggy and also were TOO EXPENSIVE. lol at least for me. Give me Walmart any day lol.
My head is killing me and I'm in a snacky mood.. so I'm gonna go "raid the kitchen" lol. No one is home, so its all MINE buahahaha. |
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| huge breakdown last night |
[Jun. 4th, 2004|10:12 am] |
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I had a major breakdown last night. I was really depressed and actually talking to myself. I think I figured what I'm good for too. I think that all I am here for is to make guys believe in love again. I really dont believe I'll ever find love for myself.
I was also hit hard because I was thinking about stuff. If what Jovanny said was true, then my whole relationship with him was just one big lie. Why would someone... how could someone hurt me like that. Let me feel so much for them and them to just act as if they care for me. How could someone do that to me? What did I do to them to make them be like that to me?
I couldnt stop crying.. it was hard crying too because I couldnt breath real well. It was the deepest depression than I have felt in a very very long time. I dont flaunt my depression around.. and barely anyone knows. I cover it well I guess you could say. But some how Jovanny knew because he would mention it a few times (like two months ago or so). I suppose my grandfather's death had a bigger impact on me than anyone could have thought. I told myself that I wouldnt let another guy into my heart, but I let Jovanny.. and now look at me. I really think I may just shut guys out.. just "have fun", not be in a serious relationship. I only seem to get hurt.. I'll never be continuously happy, someone is always gonna hurt me and I dont think I'll be able to handle that. |
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